Happy Friday to all. With registering for next semester’s classes around the corner, I have been thinking about what classes I need to take, and also what I want to do with my life. Thinking about what I want to do with my life only reaffirmed what I already knew: I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate. Although that is incredibly terrifying, I also think it’s incredibly exciting, especially studying the arts.
I’m an art + design major with a minor in English creative writing and digital media productions. I studied art all four years in high school, and I literally cannot imagine myself doing anything else with my life. I simply would not be happy. Although my art is something I am confident in, this is my first semester with these two minors, and to be honest, it really scares me. I have some academic experience with digital media, but next to none with creative writing. Because of this, I am particularly scared to be an English minor. I have always loved literature and writing, but it’s not something that I ever considered myself to be good at. I’m still not really sure if I’m good at it. I honestly feel way over my head minoring in something that requires so much specialized thought and creativity. I feel like everyone else in the program is supremely talented and I’m just pretending like I can keep up with them.
The fact that I’m so scared to pursue creative writing makes me want to pursue it even more. The fact that I have so much to learn, and the fact that I will have to challenge myself creatively to succeed, excites me beyond words. That’s how I felt about my art at first as well, and after actively studying it for the past five years, I feel confident in it. This makes me think that I’ll (hopefully) feel like this about writing in the future. On top of the fear of studying something creative, I’m also a little frightened that I don’t know what I want to do once I graduate. I’m not frightened by this in a serious, quarter-life crisis kind of way, but in a I have the power to shape my future and that is overwhelming kind of way. I think it is especially scary thinking about the future as someone studying various artistic subjects because the arts are much more uncertain as far as careers go. I literally have the power to create whatever I want artistically, and that is scary. It’s intimidating to think that a story I write, or a painting I make, or a logo I design could be well enough received by a large group of people that I could make a living from it. Literally anything I think up in my brain could support me for the rest of my life. How freaking rad is that?! That is totally awe-inspiring to me.
I am sort of rambling here, but I suppose the point is, if you are pursuing a career in the arts, or thinking of pursuing a career in the arts and are unsure of if you should do it or not, you should go for it. Honestly, it is probably what makes you most happy, and if you get as excited as I do thinking about all of the directions and possibilities your art can take you in, you really have no choice but to pursue it. Life is supposed to be scary and uncertain, so you might as well be happy while you’re doing it.
Have a great weekend and thanks for reading